thoughts from Meditation

It's been a year since I fade out of a tech. nut and become a focused heart & soul trainer.
Thought this is still a good place to share ...I think...as a new meditator...YES, try to be upfront and geeky.

This morning, when I was preparing to meditate on the subject of Loving, kindness & compassion, I couldn't stop thinking about the argument I had with a Christian friend yesterday. She told me that human life is temporary, Christian believes that man will enter heaven or hell and stay eternally thereafter. This is not a new point, but it suddenly makes me feel the extraordinary pain man encounters after death and before the next life. How strong and irresistible man wants to reborn or exist after the mind leaves the physical body!

But just like the process of born, it does not happen in a blink of an eye. Pains and tears incur. Then, how dark and grotesque the time will be when a dead resists the truth and frenetically strives to come back life wherever in heaven or in hell. Our attachment to a state of physical existence are so strong that we can not bear even a snap of lose ego sense.

I am not in heaven, I am on earth now. I was born as a human, by virtue of mother's blood and father's energy. They create a tiny origin form of body to which my mind was able to attach after dying in my past life. I am so grateful that I find them, out of the panic that I no longer exist, that all my past friends and relatives left me underground, that some devil may catch me to the hell due to my bad deeds. So I can rely on this present body and raised up gradually by my parents full of love.

Before born I was an old unknown to my parents, but they gladly accept me without any words. How compassionate they are! Like the parents in all my past lives, only that we become unknown now, because the reborn makes us forget all the darkness after we die in the past life. Man is forgetful, as soon as his mind can settle on physical form - the ego comes back, he doesn't want to remember any affliction in previous lives.

I do not remember but I want to agree, that we owe countless gratitude to all sentient beings, who were, are, will be our parents through all time of our ego existences, unconditionally grant their love to us. Then, naturally comes my Loving, kindness & compassion for them...